Tag: hard life

A Kiss Before I Die

A Kiss Before I Die

lonely teardrops speaks endless words

slowly leaving a place where i’ve lived for so long

writing the story lines of baby boomers and growing up doing the harlem shake

i play those words like a peaceful gospel song

i look around me at all the gratitude pressed against my heart

let alone to plant at my grave sight

for if tomorrow comes and it allows me to breathe my last breath

i’ll sing unto the heavenly hills

protection all around me

i breathe the words “peace be still”

cradled into the night and awakened by the flashbacks of her first walk

her first crush on a guy that was only too scared to express his true love

my cheeks rubbed against the pillow and as i could feel them burning with miserable tears

i remembered how strong i have to be

so now i will show no fear

that’s right…

i’m walking on heaven’s skies

to arrive at my first assignment

to get my wings in honor of great family

that prays over my body; spiritual demons

wanting to rush in

waiting to get in

i’ve been on this path for far too long

i’ve announced the tittle

i claimed the victory only to win

heart trembles for the pure satisfaction

scared to leave a place that has remembered me as lady pearl

diva of soul

glitz up for a fashion affair

all smiles got the wooing attention of thousands of fans

only to stay true to myself

i know exactly who i am

i closed my eyes again wanting to sleep for a long time

eternally forever

i’ve been captured through all the hell and stormy weather

children at peace and have a piece of me laying in their mind

what mother wants to ever tell their kids that they might be dying?

i lay here crying

i wiped the tears quickly from my pale face and laughed hysterically trying to cheer myself up

i won’t leave here miserable

i will still conquer the world like jewels, diamonds, gems and pearls

lonely teardrops reached out to heavenly stars and skies

i love you all

until we meet again

before i close my eyes

i reach out to the angels to give the world a kiss

a kiss before i die…

A love like this

written by lyrical passion

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A Brand New Life… (Mend me again)

I try to bring happiness to my dark clouds

The ones that try to get in the way of my present and my future

It’s funny how the Devil wants to see me going through

I’m careful about how my emotions are controlled

That I won’t let the world get me down

I try to make my heart sunny-side up and look forward to all the possibilities that I have to offer

A lot of people don’t want us to succeed

But I’m still going to shine bright and keep my head on my shoulders

You better believe!

Cleansing the environment where I breathe in

To inhale the fresh air

The smell of a new start

A new beginning

Soon again I will be back on the right path

Again winning

I allow the breeze to run through my pores

I’m giving my life to Him

Watching Him as He opens doors

I need a revelation to keep my life back again

I’m tired of the games

I’m tired of the sins

Allow me to live this life once more again…

patrice june 15th

Written by Lyrical Passion

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Time Will Tell

I’ve expressed how I felt a thousand times

To the wrong ones

At the wrong place

The wrong time

Trying to find some type of acceptance from just a face

A face that can tell me a thousand lies

To stab me in the back

But somehow still

I always rise

Yeah I’m an author

Creating my stories upon the creations

But right now all I need is a revelation

A wake-up call to start brand new

Still standing in the dark hole

Fallen through so many times

But for some reason

Still I rise

Time will tell if I can change all this around

To walk into the daylight

The brightness

Hearing that sweet peace

A wonderful sound

To surround myself with positive energy

Good-bye social media

Good bye to the back stabbers

The lyers

The gossipers

Actions speaks louder and this I know

But do you truly understand the pain I was in?

To have a breaking down once again

This is it

This is the end

No more sorrows and no more sins

Doing me and achieving my goals

I’ve been beaten to the grounds

And yet just like God

I have arose

Yes once more again

I continue to stand

Broken

Depresssed

Shortness of breath

And always stressed

All of this

It must rest!

I say good-bye for the final time

Cutting loose of all social media and all author ties

I’m starting my life over again

For real this time

I can’t continue to damage myself

Asking myself “How do I always continue to rise?”

To breathe once more

Struggling for one more breath to get me through the day

The Devil has been wearing my face

Showing fake emotions and getting the best of me

God will guide my footsteps

Slower

And at His pace

Time will tell if I’m making great improvements

To focus on what God has called me to do

To bless others with my writing

For me and for you

My journey isn’t through

I have a story to tell

To write about the numerous times I have failed

But this time

Time will tell

Written by Lyrical Passion

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A Change Needed

Waking up one morning

Just a thought

Only a thought

It just takes one positive thought to make an important decision

To follow a different path of life

A change that is needed

To once again feel peace

To love again

To feel again

The happiness of how it used to be when I was a little girl

Smiles that keeps me moving

Still standing

Moving along

There is no such thing as a perfect creature

But to live in a world

That isn’t about peace

But to change the surroundings around me

My heart 

My life

To be reborn again

To be happy again

To heal from all the mess that I now have to confess

A change is the solution..

a changed mind

Written by Lyrical Passion

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Still in this Race….To Win!

braids n beauty

Days can get hard when frustrations are thrown your way

Wondering how you are going to make it

Looking up to God

You surely can’t fake it

Throwing you a curve ball; a test to see if you have passed

You fail it again

Stormy weather they never do last

Those tear drops you shed when no one else is looking

Praying to God another prayer of forgiveness

Hoping He has some blessings upstairs cooking

I can do this right

If only I have faith without having the worldly sight

To tame myself if I just might

I’m a strong soldier

I’m in this race to win

Even if sometimes I tend to sin

I’m not perfect but I do want to make a change

Even when things and even decisions seems a little strange

I feel attacked at times

Feeling like people are setting me up

Tears they roll down my cheeks again

“God, am I strong enough to even win?”

I exhaled deeply and slowly

And look at this world deep and coldly

I trust no one

Who can I trust?

God I’m tired of the fuss

To kick rocks and give up my hands to you

Saying to myself I give it all up, I am Through!

This world has gotten so cold

Numb to my soul

I pray things will change as I get old

To find true happiness and inner peace

For frustrations and tempers to decease

To bury the hatchet and the setbacks

To become a brand new creature

A new soul that God will Mold

But When?

No one to trust

I shouldn’t worry about people trying to set me up

Or talk about me behind my back

Still Standing

Still Strong

Still Living

This race I’m running seems too long

But I’m in it to win it

Just Me

 

Written by Lyrical Passion

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From the Inside

Bleeding from my inside

My wombs has never healed

My suicidal letter still mentally remains in my mind

Feel like giving up on this timeless life

Why shall I live another notch

I can’t take anymore of the hate that triggers my mind

To take a bullet and blow my mind

I’m dying on the inside

I’m screaming on the inside

I’m holding my pain on the inside

I HATE MYSELF FROM THE INSIDE

Why does it have to be like this?

Why does my tongue have to slip once again

Damn sins

I just want to start my life over again

From scratch!

The end!

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A Peaceful Mind

Allow me to dive into the silence that speaks power to the souls of heaven

To inhale and to hear my every heartbeat…..

Slowly as I close my eyes and look unto the heavens

No more drama that delays my energy

To be at peace with myself and to nourish off of the remedies

To breathe the positive energy and to keep my eyes still on the visions that God has implanted unto my heart

Cries that turn into sweet sounds of fear

Scared of my own feelings as the guilt tries to come back inside

Unknown tears that’s a secret upon my spirit and God

No one knows of the dark world that sits upon me at times

I’m dying for a peaceful mind to focus on me

To drink my soul and bleed my words and dreams

That sits upon my throne of hope

A legendary uniqueness that indulges the mind of everlasting craves

To crave the peace that dwells in the sounds of birds chirping and to hear my thoughts in array

All I want is to end the darkness and walk into a world that’s only filled with peace

An endless beginning

a peaceful mind

 

Written by Patrice “Lyrical Passion” Rivers

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Free Me!

I reach upon the Earth that reaches towards the spirit of Him

I feel him in the air

The chains that hinders me from moving forward shall be free from bondage

Walking in the moonlight with a light spirit and running around in the color of arrays

Paint me a new me

A new life that only I will remember

I want to be able to smile at the early rise of the sun

And exhale when the moon sets in my window pane

Exhaling from the negativity that vanishes

Free me from the pain

I cry out yet again!

I want to feel brand new!

abandoned-dream

Written by Patrice “Lyrical Passion” Rivers

 

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Still Hidden in the Dark

Just when I thought all hope was gone

To put my soul and mind into a perspective setting

To feel free of this world as I become alone and focused

The feelings that haunt me and lay before me arises from the night and ease its evil spirit upon my heart

Pressing and rising more and more

Hot tears stain my vacant face

Lost for words as the Devil strikes it’s best shot

“Never going back to that place” I murmured to myself

I prayed that new beginnings will change hearts

That dreams will come true and positivity will seep into my heart

I visited the dark place again and it doesn’t feel pleasant

To become hostile in the midnight hour not knowing when these spells will end

I once hid into the dark valley for years

Never knowing when I would come out of the woods

Feeling lonely under the stars as my tears becomes my best friend

Unspoken words of innocence swallows my pride and fear creeps into my mind

I can’t do this anymore

But sometimes sweet revenge feel great

Having that upper strength and power to prove a saddened point

The tongue of deadly thoughts that pours venom of hostility and unforgiving hearts

Years has passed and the dark place that I once knew

Once again in

Visited me for a short spell

Not crazy to the world or to innocent people not knowing my true Hiding within myself my most deepest pain and depression among the stars

That they will sleep silently next to my shadows that still follows my every footstep

My cries becomes unknown

Even if I cried louder, no one would hear me

The lost soul that’s misrepresented

Misunderstood

No one understands

No one but God himself!

Who are you to judge?

Who is the world to judge a child that has seem to lost its way and all they want is to be free?

Be free of the hatred

Be free from the evil spirits that still rests upon her soul

Let her be free

I hide my worries upon the smiles of daylight,

To hide my beauty beneath the wings of my burdens

Hidden in the dark ready to attack like wild dogs

My words on a leash that hurts

Kills souls

I’m not that girl

I am unique

I’m not who they say I am

I’m not that girl

I remain happy within the love of what I do

To pen and to start again

Fresh again like a brand new day

Wondering if the dark clouds of Hades will stay away

I pray for forgiveness

To end this

And then no more will my flesh be hidden in the dark

still hidden in the dark

Written by Patrice “Lyrical Passion” Rivers

February 2014

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Left for Dead

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Hi

My name is Syah

I’m a 3-year old girl

All alone in my own little world

My mother has neglected me

Abandoned me with nothing to eat

I walk around with the same clothes on

Looking for love and left in the dark

Cold

Alone

Broken-hearted

 

She’s crying out to you God!

Can you hear her silent cries as her little toes and hands are reaching for love

A mother who is always strunged out on drugs or beaten to death by men that she lets in

Syah is all alone watching the abuse

Left for dead

A deadly sin

God please help this child as she is all alone

No food to eat

Nowhere to sleep

Bare-footed walking on diseased streets

Eating food out of the dumpster where she can only reach

Someone save her from this place of Hell

She tries to scream and yell

But no one hears her painful cries

Invisible black child

Left alone in a disquise

Who will help her and save her soul?

In a world of trouble 

Left for dead

Roaming the streets trying to find a place to sleep

Old men looks at her likes shes money

She gets frightened when they try to touch Syah funny

“Syrah RUN!” 

A voice in her head said

She yelled for help

Running back to the home that has neglected her

Somewhere she wants to call her own

She watches her mom being dragged down the hall

Beaten again

Tears starts flowing

Then a man grabs Syah and lays her on top of her mother..now dead

She closes her eyes and sings her favorite song until she couldn’t sing it anymore

Breathing stops

Body still

Shot mulitiple times

No more breathing

No more crying

Meeting her mother in heaven’s eye

Left for dead

Only three-years old

No life anymore

Angels carry her home

 

Written by Patrice “Lyrical Passion” Rivers Copyrighed January 2014 (c) 

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